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Pathetic.

Someone in the IRS has a bone to pick with Obama.

A little background:

I grew up in a church called the United Church of Christ, which has been gaining prominence in recent years. A fellow member of my church happens to be none other than Barack Obama.

Last June, Senator Obama gave an address at the UCC’s general synod, a nationwide meeting of church members intended to discuss the church’s leadership, official positions on issues, and world mission. Senator Obama was one of more than 31 people to speak at the synod.

Now we learn that the IRS has opened an investigation into the UCC, stating that having Senator Obama speak at the synod was an inappropriate political activity and that it could compromise the church’s tax-exempt status.

This is lower than low. The simple fact that Obama is an active member of our church somehow indicates that we’re all Obama boosters and that we’re promoting him as a candidate? Hardly. Having the man speak at our synod does not equal providing political backing for his election campaign.

And this is beside the point. How about the fact that Catholic churches around the USA campaigned against John Kerry in 2004 because of his stance on abortion? How about the fact that Billy Graham and his church campaigned against JFK for no other reason than that JFK was a Catholic?

Churches – especially conservative churches – have a long history of getting involved in politics and pushing one candidate over another. And politicians have an equally long history of wooing religious groups to try to gain their favor. But in this case, all we have is a candidate going to his own church’s national meeting, along with around 9100 other people. Somehow this, above all else, is inappropriate behavior from a church? Letting him speak?

Pathetic.

Struggling for faith

I’m in another crisis of faith.

“Wait a minute, FreePlay has faith?” Yes, very funny, ha ha. I know, I argue against religious people all the time, but you’ve got to realize, I’m not arguing against God, I’m arguing against dogma. I believe in God. But the more I delve into my desire to rationalize everything, the harder it becomes for me to give myself a reason to keep believing.

I want to believe. I want there to be mystery and miracles and wonder. I feel like digging into the pettiest details of everything and explaining it away makes the world less exciting and more mundane. But I also feel like I have to do it. My mind forces me to come up with explanations for everything, but my soul aches for something I can believe in without having to give up my rational faculties.

I can’t believe blindly. I wish I had the strength of faith and will to be able to believe in something without having to analyze it logically. In some ways I admire the people I mock; at least they’ve got the courage to stand up for their convictions and believe what they believe despite people like me. Then again I can’t admire them, because they’re so often abandoning their God-given ability to reason in exchange for thoughtless obedience to doctrine and books.

What do I have to do to convince myself it’s all right to have faith?

I’ve been raised in a Christian tradition, though it has by far been a liberal version of it. Now, I don’t think there’s anything wrong with interpreting the Bible and Christian theology to fit your own needs; on the contrary, I think it’s absolutely essential, if you want to truly adopt the philosophy and the faith as your own. But I’m so tired of it. I’m tired of figuring everything out on my own. My mind is too stubborn to simply accept what someone else tells me, but the longer I keep to myself, the more I turn my examination of faith into a science rather than a journey of the soul. I’m nitpicking at the details of God rather than basking in the glory of His fullness. I can’t see the forest for the trees, and there seem to be more and more trees every time I look.

It’s becoming harder and harder for me to come up with explanations for why I believe, or what I believe. I’m really not sure what I do believe anymore. My mind’s mixed up and fighting against itself here; part of it says “go with God” and another part says “get over God.”

All I know is I want to have something to believe, and I want to have some reason to believe it.

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